And So The World Goes On

I lift my head, and close my eyes
as the wind picks up around me.
The world turns as I stand here,
not caring about what happens.
The sun rises, always moving toward the future,
leaving in its path, the steadily accumulating past.
Then it hits me.
The rain, sleet and hail pelts down at me,
as if their trying to erase my existence.

My arms raise so
that they are leveled with my shoulders.
The wind rages on, trying to pull me away
from the stable ground bellow me.
It's trying to force my body over the edge,
and into the hungry, raging waters bellow.
My spirit and soul longed to fly with the wind
that hated me so.
My arms ached to feel the water
that wanted to eat me whole.
My legs yearned to stay firmly on the ground
with my family and friends.
My mind, it does not exist,
it is no longer of any substance for me to rely on.

I remain standing, not moving from my spot.
I allowed my eyes to see, not what was around me
but I allowed them to see other things.
Things that I wanted to so desperately to hold on too
and yet they were things I so wanted to let go.
They were faces, dreams, things.
They were my greatest weakness.
And my greatest strength.
Though, its not like they matter.
The world would continue to turn,
it will not stop for some stupid, naive young girl,
who no longer wants to deal with it.

I lift a leg and step over the edge.
Allowing the wind to rip at my face,
the rain, sleet and hail to force me down,
the earth to escape from me,
my dreams, my memories, my sight, to fade into oblivion.

And so the world goes on.
There is nothing to do about that one stupid, naive young girl,
who gave up all she had.
And so the world goes on, as she knew it would.
And so the world goes on, despite the pain, hate, war.
And so the world goes on, despite the love, friendship and peace.
And so the world goes on.

About Left Behind

For whoever out there who actually did read Left Behind, this is where i got it from.

I didn't really realize who this poem was about until a close friend pointed it out to me. He said it was about my Dad. And I think He's right.My dad, is definetly not the best father in the world, and he probably wont ever win father of the year. And a lot of times it does feel like he left me alone. My dad is in the army and he moved to another state, never having been married to my mom, he never had anything to hold him here.

I really dont have much to say about this, so. . . . . .whatever.

From,
A lazy Yuuka

Left Behind

It slipped
through my fingers,
the hope,
the happiness,
the horror.
It all
melted
away.

I feel,
nothing.
I am,
nothing.
I am just
the long Forgotten
picture,
of your Childhood.

I didn't know,
that,
after everything,
you could
just,
leave me.
You left me
with nothing.
You made me
nothing.

Why did you
leave me?
So alone
and numb.
I used
to ask
that.
But,
then I remember,
You didn't
leave me
with nothing.

You left
me,
with memories
and dreams,
about what
was,
and what
we
could have been.

Lost In An Unknown World Part 1 ©

I jolted into consciousness, to find myself in a dark musty room. Probably someones basement. I pulled at the restraints that tied my hands together on the back of the chair I was sitting on. My mouth was sealed with duck tape And thick rope secured my waist and legs to the chair that I was ssitting on. I let out a heavy sigh.
I guess I should explain. I have MPD, or Multiple Personality Disorder. My name? I have three. Theres me, Kate, the original personality. Then Kaiko, it means the child of forgiveness. She was the first to appear. Lastly came Rei, it means spirit.
Everything started this morning. . . . . If my time is correct, if not yesterday morning.

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I walked into the building clutching my green bag tightly. This will be the last time, the last time I come here. After this, I'm leaving. I had been chanting this to myself for the past hour. We all know this already. Calm down and lets get this over with!!!! *You know Rei your no help. She can sense all of that useless energy your giving off.* Oh, just shut up Kaiko! I ignored them and walked up to the receptionist desk.
"Hi, I'm Kate Roodwell. I'm here for my appointment." I said sweetly to the receptionist. She nodded and smiled at me.
"You can go in and see Dr. Jane now." She replied with the same sweetness that was amazingly fake.
I walked past the desk and went down the light colored hall. I was at my therapists office. My mom didnt take it to keenly when Rei suddenly took over and started ranting.
The door to her 'office' was open. The paint color was plain and bland. All over the wall were certificates that proved she was a 'doctor'. Jane was sitting behind her desk looking at some papers that were in messy piles. Her rusty red hair was up in a tight bun and her dark brown eyes peered up at me through her rimless glasses.
"Good morning Kate. Please sit, if you give me a moment then we will begin." I walked over and sat on one of her uncomfortable leather couches in her room. I hated coming here. Jane gets paid all this money just to ask me how I'm feeling and how my day went. I let a long and loud sigh escape my lips as I leaned back and closed my eyes. Not a good idea. Rei took over.

okay my mind is spewing with ideas and if i wrote them all down this would be a very long post. But I want you ideas too! Please dont copy this and take it as your own. If you like it tell me, if not tell me too.
-Yuuka

New Blog, Different Reasons

Heyllo. I am starting another blog pretty much, just so that I can write the beginings, or parts of stories that I want to write. Or if its just to get others opinions. I am creating this specifically for writing use only. If you want to read about what goes on in my everyday life (not really sure who would. . . ) check my profile for the other site.

And for those who like reading and commenting on stories, please do so.

Hope you enjoy,
Yuuka